To Those Whom I Love

Friendships exist in any kind of phase I pass. I had one in elementary, two in junior high, back to the last number in high school, then had various circles in university. The number does increase, but that’s not my main focus here. I notice that I have this pattern of people who ended up being in my part of life.

Despite the variety of people I meet, I always choose those who seem helpful. I’m an observant person. Before I asked their name, I had known theirs from the conversation they did with others. Before I tried to build a conversation, I noticed what kind of topic would continuously flow in our chat. Thus, I assume my way of thinking influences me to refine my friendship with these following units and emotions discussed imperfectly.

A good listener would be the top tier of a lovable person in my life. I love talking. As you judge, I highly need someone to listen to my story. Endah, Aulia, Syifa, Tania, Paulia, Jihan, Putri, Ifa, Dika, and Widya (probably edited when I remember more) always listen to my nonsense whenever any topics pop up. Surprisingly, we always end up discussing the issues in a way we can conclude and summarize the major points of any problems that occur. I love babbling about anything, and I don’t complain when they tell me to stop. I do talk shit sometimes.

Next, nice humor. I’m the ‘gak jelas’ person in the groups. It requires a lot of time to adapt and filter which jokes suit which groups. Paulia, Tania, Bunga, Pebay, Anggun, Aulia, Jihan, Ifah, Dika, Dina, and Diki (probably edited when I remember more) are those I’m comfortable enough joking around and get crazy. The humor can be divided from telling the childhood memory, love life, K-pops, dirty talk, exes, hatred toward those idiots, or just being crazy at the moment by falling down out of the blue (Pebay), singing off-key in the car, making ugly faces (already default), and doing any embarrassing stuff.

Going out will be a great topic to bring up here. I’m easily bored and always the ‘out of the blue’ person. I’d be eating instant noodles at the school break time and wanting to have a bowl of Shabu Kitchen ramen after school –the Shabu Kitchen ramen, that specific. Then, I’ll hit those group chats by asking who’s coming with me. The low chance of ‘yes’ yet a confident question. But those who will be asked first before I end up in the group chats are Tania, Paulia, and Endah. I don’t know why those three are always on the top of my go-to list.

This should be the closing paragraph of my perspectives on filtering friendship. However, I remembered something as I was illustrating my friend groups. I said I’m an observant, meaning I’m the one who judges. I have both negative and positive ideas of others. Hence, I’m being analyzed too. All of them said I’m a good listener, even though with some arguments in the middle of storytime. I’m either a good manipulator or a good negotiator, so they could pour their emotions. Since I’m the ‘skuy’ type of person, they are comfortable to hang out with me. This means, I’m their (one of the) favorite people to go to. Beside the ‘gak jelas’ side of me, I think I’m a lovable person too hehehe